After the Plunge

The rainbow seemed to either begin or end where the waters converged. After the fall. After the plunge. The mist from this reset could be felt from quite a distance. 

I want to believe it is the beginning. Things have been thrown over the rocks, and churned all around. But, the general direction remains the same. So, it is just a change of pace. 

Hypocrite

I’m the biggest hypocrite I know

because I know

I know what to do 

exactly when I don’t do it

I know where to go

exactly when I’m running

I know the very reason why

that I don’t want to try

gripping instead my lie

and blinding my own eye

Yes, I’m the ugliest of ugly

since I’ve looked at true beauty

and still choose the other lover

since I’ve heard the sweetest sounds

and still swarm to the murmurings

Yes, I’m most foolish of a fool

leaving the healing pool

to simply sink in the mud

trading in my share

 of endless living water

to coat my throat with dust

Jesus, why do you still love me?

You just won’t quit.

-August 2013

Sticks and Stones

Loose tongues spitting fire

burning away beauty

burning off remnants

With the complexity of language that only humans articulate

that muted motions of ants jealously observe

that gurgles of swordfish long for

form weapons mightier than the sword

and we cut

and we slice

and we sever

What do we gain from knocking each other down?

Where do those crushed spirits flee?

What do we earn from each saddened frown?

from smothered, wilted glee?  

December 2012 

Vapor

We hold on loosely

but we do not neglect

to cling to the contents

We appear briefly

as if in a supporting role

in a story not our own

We float on as a vapor

-July 2012 

Tarnish

Melt away the rust, God

melt away the rust

that keeps my knees from bending

that keeps my legs from running free

Holy Spirit, holy fire

burn away the dust

burn away my fear and all of my distrust

Create in me a clean heart

renew a right spirit within me

Turn my ears towards heaven alone

smother out my distracting noise

shout aloud within me, God

let my ears ring from resonance

Purify my life, God

make nothing remain that's mine

make nothing remain that's mine

-Summer 2012

Light Shines in the Darkness

The words they spoke arrived in my ears
as if they were drenched with tears
of my Heavenly Father
who had watched me go farther
and further
away
But that day
became my TODAY
and those words led me away
towards the Way
of life, of truth, of THE WAY, THE TRUTH, and THE LIFE

and TODAY, while it is still day
I hear those words all the more

I beg You, Father
scream louder

because I am ever so aware
that deception and despair
still cling to my ribs

But Your light leaks in
Your light breaks through
Your light burns away

So, now, consume every dark space
and erase, erase and replace
ashes
for beauty
mourning
for gladness

lift up Your throne within my heart
that all my steps be guided by Your kingdom

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
Your light shines in the darkness
and the darkness has not overcome

July 2012

Intending on Ignoring

Sometimes it doesn't get any more clear

That I'm straying over here while You are calling me there

I'm intending on ignoring

Setting my eyes on overlooking

Bending my heart to the floor

No less do You implore

Shrugging my shoulders

No less do You persist

By now,this repetition should have built mastery

I should have it down

And be so out of this town

Where streets are paved with good intention

A perfect candidate for retention

Bending my heart to the floor

No less do You implore

Shrugging my shoulders

No less do You persist

May 2011