Part Six : "Hypocrisy"

I’m the biggest hypocrite I know

because I know

I know what to do 

exactly when I don’t do it

I know where to go

exactly when I’m running

I know the very reason why

that I don’t want to try

gripping instead my lie

and blinding my own eye

Yes, I’m the ugliest of ugly

since I’ve looked at true beauty

and still choose the other lover

since I’ve heard the sweetest sounds

and still swarm to the murmurings

Yes, I’m most foolish of a fool

leaving the healing pool

to simply sink in the mud

trading in my share

 of endless living water

to coat my throat with dust

Jesus, why do you still love me?

You just won’t quit.

-Merks 2013